Saturday, October 14, 2006
Cold Weather and my Winter Coat
I was unpleasantly surprised when I stepped outside yesterday by a temperature somewhere in the thirties. Before letting the door slam shut, I stuck my foot in the doorway and grabbed a pair of mittens (hand-knit angora and wool, very pretty but not, alas, very windproof) from the front closet. It was equally cold today, and made me wish for a hat.
I'm not sure I want to risk wearing a hat over my "cranial prosthesis." What if, when I go to take the hat off, the hair comes with it? I've often thought about whipping my hair off--especially when in the midst of a hot flash--for shock value, but doubt I'll actually do it.
I may soon be able to forgo wearing the detatchable hair. Not just because I and my medical team have talked about taking a break from the chemotherapy, but because my hair and eyebrows actually seem to be growing back.
I did not lose all of my hair initially, but shaved my head to eliminate the depressingness of having a pillowcase coated with what should have remained on my noggin. I would guess that about a third of my hair remained actively growing, and it dutifully grew in, sparse and icky, whereas my eyebrow hairs drifted away one by one until they were totally gone.
I'm not sure when I noticed that there seemed to be new growth. First I noticed that sometimes it looked like there was more hair on my head depending on where the light came from. The new hairs were evident when backlit, but otherwise invisible. The peach fuzz was also shorter than the sparse dark hairs and wiry greys poking straight up. The invisible fuzz was actually propping up the rest of the hair, rendering it utterly uncontrollable. I've got an undercoat, I realized.
One night I couldn't stand it anymore and took a pair of scissors to the whole mess and cut it all to the same length. My scalp is totally visible and it looks stupid, but the hair feels really neat and I can't stop touching it.
I've actually been worried about this. Does the new growth mean that I'm becoming resistant to the chemotherapy? Has it stopped working? I asked Lita, and she assured me it was not a stupid question. Her explanation was that initiating chemotherapy can "irritate" the folicles, but it's not uncommon for people to have their hair continue growing while on taxol. Abraxane appears to be similar.
My winter coat is not terribly luxurious as of yet, but give it time. It will be done just in time for spring.
I'm not sure I want to risk wearing a hat over my "cranial prosthesis." What if, when I go to take the hat off, the hair comes with it? I've often thought about whipping my hair off--especially when in the midst of a hot flash--for shock value, but doubt I'll actually do it.
I may soon be able to forgo wearing the detatchable hair. Not just because I and my medical team have talked about taking a break from the chemotherapy, but because my hair and eyebrows actually seem to be growing back.
I did not lose all of my hair initially, but shaved my head to eliminate the depressingness of having a pillowcase coated with what should have remained on my noggin. I would guess that about a third of my hair remained actively growing, and it dutifully grew in, sparse and icky, whereas my eyebrow hairs drifted away one by one until they were totally gone.
I'm not sure when I noticed that there seemed to be new growth. First I noticed that sometimes it looked like there was more hair on my head depending on where the light came from. The new hairs were evident when backlit, but otherwise invisible. The peach fuzz was also shorter than the sparse dark hairs and wiry greys poking straight up. The invisible fuzz was actually propping up the rest of the hair, rendering it utterly uncontrollable. I've got an undercoat, I realized.
One night I couldn't stand it anymore and took a pair of scissors to the whole mess and cut it all to the same length. My scalp is totally visible and it looks stupid, but the hair feels really neat and I can't stop touching it.
I've actually been worried about this. Does the new growth mean that I'm becoming resistant to the chemotherapy? Has it stopped working? I asked Lita, and she assured me it was not a stupid question. Her explanation was that initiating chemotherapy can "irritate" the folicles, but it's not uncommon for people to have their hair continue growing while on taxol. Abraxane appears to be similar.
My winter coat is not terribly luxurious as of yet, but give it time. It will be done just in time for spring.
Labels: baldness, chemo, cold, eyebrows, hair, hat, hot flash, wigs
