Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I Dreeeeeeam of Janet with the Long Brown Hair
It's not actually long when I dream about it, which is what makes my hair dreams so annoyingly plausible. I keep dreaming that in the course of going about my dream-business, I check my reflection and run my fingers through my short, glossy brown hair. It is about an inch and a half long, full, thick, and shiny. It never occurs to me to wonder why I'd have so much hair on my head, and the dreams are very seldom just about the hair.
Except that the hair is the only thing I remember upon waking. And it takes me a little while to recall that my hair is really only about a quarter of an inch long, an indistinct brownish khaki, and there's not enough of it to hide my shiny scalp or make it look like anything other than the fact that I'm mostly bald with some dark fuzz on the dome.
I also dream about eyelashes. I put mascara on my dream lashes one night, and got angry when I remembered the next day that I haven't worn mascara in eight months.
I do have tiny stubby lashes and brows growing in, which makes this all the more maddening. It is so slow. Will it ever grow in? Will it get thicker? When? When? This hair growth is despite my chemotherapy, so it's not like I can reasonably expect any at all. I should be happy for the moldy covering I've got.
Of course the annoying Hairs That Must Be Tweezed (you know the ones I'm talking about) have returned with gusto and are doing fine.
Hair is stoopid.
Except that the hair is the only thing I remember upon waking. And it takes me a little while to recall that my hair is really only about a quarter of an inch long, an indistinct brownish khaki, and there's not enough of it to hide my shiny scalp or make it look like anything other than the fact that I'm mostly bald with some dark fuzz on the dome.
I also dream about eyelashes. I put mascara on my dream lashes one night, and got angry when I remembered the next day that I haven't worn mascara in eight months.
I do have tiny stubby lashes and brows growing in, which makes this all the more maddening. It is so slow. Will it ever grow in? Will it get thicker? When? When? This hair growth is despite my chemotherapy, so it's not like I can reasonably expect any at all. I should be happy for the moldy covering I've got.
Of course the annoying Hairs That Must Be Tweezed (you know the ones I'm talking about) have returned with gusto and are doing fine.
Hair is stoopid.
