Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Brain Update
I'm not bent on world conquest to the degree that the Brain is, but I have the same pale noggin and bags under my eyes. I think that's as far as the comparison can really go (unless somebody wants to make a crack about my shortness of stature). Brain may have been experimented on and possibly gets lots of shots, but I'm pretty sure they don't have to give him little tiny mouse MRIs. I got good news about my recent brain MRI: The scan shows no new lesions, and the existing ones are reduced in size. Brain mets do not automatically go away; once they're killed, they either can sit there, inert, for quite a while, or sometimes they get reabsorbed by the body and disposed of.
At my appointment today it was decided to delay my next paracentesis until Monday so as to not do it too early--Brian and I are leaving for New York to visit his brother Scott and the various nieces and nephews for the Fourth of July. I also found out my liver function numbers are improved, and that I would be getting infused today. I had to walk over to "Med Inn" which is actually a hotel in the hospital for out of town patients and family which has treatment areas that are semi-private and they had a strolling massage-giver offering foot or back or neck rubs or whatever. They don't do that at regular infusion! And regular infusion is always out of bagels.
Since the swelling in my brain is down and my cognitive function seems pretty much normal, I can set aside my fears I was going to end up incoherent and illogical as Brain's cohort, Pinky. I hope no more pesky lesions crop up. "Pinky, are you pondering what I'm pondering?"
"I think so, Brain, but where are we going to find men's underpants that fit?"
Labels: brain metastases, brain scan, Brian, Gemzar, liver, MRI, paracentesis, vacation, Zometa
Monday, June 11, 2007
Another Day, Another Speech Impediment
I have traded my braces for retainers, which feel equally confining, if less pointy and jabby. My reasons for halting the orthodontic treatment early make me not quite as thrilled as I would normally be to have unfettered teeth (at least teeth unfettered by bits of metal actually glued to them), but I will be happy enough to be able to enjoy ribs and corn on the cob. I am even looking forward to eating apples, which gives me at least one thing in common with Captain Barbossa.
I am to wear the retainers every day and all night, except when eating or brushing my teeth. It will be nice to be able to floss normally again. I have two rather large gaps on the top from where I had teeth extracted; these gaps have steadfastly refused to close (due, I believe to my treatment with Zometa), so I have thrown in the orthodontic towel and now will enjoy an entirely new difficulty in speaking intelligibly.
I hope I will be able to play my flute again, at least. I realize I will need a good deal of practice, but at least now pursing my lips in the appropriate manner won't actually hurt.
I will never be as good a whistler as I once was, and that wasn't very good, either.
Right now talking is the real challenge, compounded by the fact that I am suffering the ill effects of some virus or other which was enough to knock me flat on my back for a few days, miss a round of mini-golf with my mom, and actually request my Neupogen shots, which I usually weasel out of taking. The lower retainer pushes my tongue upwards, and the upper retainer takes up half of my mouth.
Proteethius Unbound: and nobody can understand a damn word I'm saying.
I am to wear the retainers every day and all night, except when eating or brushing my teeth. It will be nice to be able to floss normally again. I have two rather large gaps on the top from where I had teeth extracted; these gaps have steadfastly refused to close (due, I believe to my treatment with Zometa), so I have thrown in the orthodontic towel and now will enjoy an entirely new difficulty in speaking intelligibly.
I hope I will be able to play my flute again, at least. I realize I will need a good deal of practice, but at least now pursing my lips in the appropriate manner won't actually hurt.
I will never be as good a whistler as I once was, and that wasn't very good, either.
Right now talking is the real challenge, compounded by the fact that I am suffering the ill effects of some virus or other which was enough to knock me flat on my back for a few days, miss a round of mini-golf with my mom, and actually request my Neupogen shots, which I usually weasel out of taking. The lower retainer pushes my tongue upwards, and the upper retainer takes up half of my mouth.
Proteethius Unbound: and nobody can understand a damn word I'm saying.
Labels: braces, Neupogen, Zometa
Monday, March 19, 2007
Superchains AND Powerchains
...And some Elsevier articles that really have me convinced that the braces are a bad plan.
I know the orthodontist doesn't believe I've been wearing rubber bands because my teeth are not moving. Today he had the assistant put "superchains" on the left side (with the largest gap) underneath the wire, and then a "powerchain" all the way across the brackets on my top teeth from port to prow to starboard. My mouth feels uncomfortably tight and this cannot possibly be good. I've been looking at some journal articles today, and one showed a couple of case studies of people on bisphosphonates who, even though they did experience some very slow tooth movement (one lady had braces for 30 months instead of the projected 18-24), it was mostly from tooth tipping, and not because the roots were actually moving.
I need to ask to have these things taken off. I will be disappointed to have gaps left in my teeth, but at least they look better than they did before they reached this level of straightening. Maybe at some point I will be off the Zometa long enough for dental work of this kind to make sense (maybe...but doubtful: bisphosphonates have a very long half-life and I'm sure Lita/Dr. Hayes won't just take me off Zometa), but right now I think it's a lot of pain and anguish for negligible (or poor) results, with added risk of osteonecrosis.
Do I wait until my next orthodontist appointment? Should I ask Lita about this again next Tuesday? I don't really know how to bring this up with the orthodontist. I gave him Lita's number; I'm not sure he ever called. I'm not sure he's up on his research about this issue. I'm not sure he wants to hear a patient talking about "the literature." Maybe I should just go in and demand to have retainers because I'm done.
I really wanted my teeth fixed. Oh well.
I know the orthodontist doesn't believe I've been wearing rubber bands because my teeth are not moving. Today he had the assistant put "superchains" on the left side (with the largest gap) underneath the wire, and then a "powerchain" all the way across the brackets on my top teeth from port to prow to starboard. My mouth feels uncomfortably tight and this cannot possibly be good. I've been looking at some journal articles today, and one showed a couple of case studies of people on bisphosphonates who, even though they did experience some very slow tooth movement (one lady had braces for 30 months instead of the projected 18-24), it was mostly from tooth tipping, and not because the roots were actually moving.
I need to ask to have these things taken off. I will be disappointed to have gaps left in my teeth, but at least they look better than they did before they reached this level of straightening. Maybe at some point I will be off the Zometa long enough for dental work of this kind to make sense (maybe...but doubtful: bisphosphonates have a very long half-life and I'm sure Lita/Dr. Hayes won't just take me off Zometa), but right now I think it's a lot of pain and anguish for negligible (or poor) results, with added risk of osteonecrosis.
Do I wait until my next orthodontist appointment? Should I ask Lita about this again next Tuesday? I don't really know how to bring this up with the orthodontist. I gave him Lita's number; I'm not sure he ever called. I'm not sure he's up on his research about this issue. I'm not sure he wants to hear a patient talking about "the literature." Maybe I should just go in and demand to have retainers because I'm done.
I really wanted my teeth fixed. Oh well.
Labels: braces, Dr. Hayes, Lita, Zometa
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Bisphosphonates and braces
It seems that the very mechanism by which orthodontic braces work is what bisphosphonates like Zometa interfere with. What is a very good thing in areas like my hip and vertebrae is not so good in an area where you want bone to be regularly reabsorbed. This is one of the contributing factors to osteonecrosis of the jaw. This is not to say I think I will get osteonecrosis, but it could explain why my teeth do not seem to be moving.
It might be worth having a conversation with the orthodontist about whether there's any point in continuing orthodontic treatment. I'm very bummed about this. I have gaps that will probably never close. The good news is that at least my teeth were pulled before I started Zometa.
It might be worth having a conversation with the orthodontist about whether there's any point in continuing orthodontic treatment. I'm very bummed about this. I have gaps that will probably never close. The good news is that at least my teeth were pulled before I started Zometa.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Ok, Break's Over: now where did I put that mandible?
It was nice while it lasted.
I was the first patient Dr. Hayes and Lita tried to treat with just Avastin and Zometa, in the hope that my disease is stable enough to treat without my having to undergo chemotherapy. As mentioned in a previous post, the blood test results from two weeks ago indicated that there could be some tumor activity: one of the markers remained the same, but the other blipped up.
So I went in for my bone scan and CT scan last week, which is always a joy. I was not able to eat during the day because of my evening scan, and by the time I got home I was ravenous and more than a little insane with low-blood-sugar-induced anger. I was angry about being stuck at the hospital with nothing to do for three and a half hours because I wouldn't have had time to get home and back. I was angry about not being able to eat. I was angry about the fact that barium even exists at all and that they can't inject the contrast dye into my port (Lita says now there's a new kind called a "superport" that they can use for injecting the dye...I may consider asking to get mine replaced). I was angry about slow traffic, at the person who honked at me for not turning quickly enough into the Wendy's parking lot, at the slowness of the drive-thru. I was angry at Brian for keeping me company while eating. I was once again angry at barium when it decided to go on its voyage to porcelain heaven--all at once. I was angry at pretty much anything it occurred to me to think of or notice.
I got my results today.
The Good News
My bones appear completely stable. There was no progression of disease in my hip/spine/ribs, and Lita is not at all worried about undue risk of fracture.
What a difference a year makes.
The Bad News
The bad news is that the disease in my liver does show progression, and as of today, both tumor markers were up (the one which had gotten down to 16-point-something is now about 200). I resumed the Abraxane today and have every expectation that those markers will go down again to near-normal levels. If not, we lather, rinse, repeat with some other drug.
Alas, this also does mean I have to resume enduring Neupogen shots. :(
The Freaky News
Within the last year, they've started hearing about some kind of weird bone problem that happens with people on Zometa--in rare cases, part of the jawbone (and only the jawbone) actually dies, which can lead to exposed bone in the mouth.
Yuck.
They have not seen this before because in the past, breast cancer patients with stage IV disease didn't last very long and Zometa didn't exist. Now it does, and there are a lot more people living significantly longer. Lita stressed that this side-effect is rare, but I get a tightness in my chest when I hear people telling me about medical conditions I have a very small chance of experiencing. I've played those odds--several times--and keep on beating 'em. I have been instructed to make my orthodontist aware of the risk so that they can check for my jaw health at my regular appointments.
Great. All this money for braces only to have my lower jaw corrode away or fall off or whatever. That's just swell.
I was the first patient Dr. Hayes and Lita tried to treat with just Avastin and Zometa, in the hope that my disease is stable enough to treat without my having to undergo chemotherapy. As mentioned in a previous post, the blood test results from two weeks ago indicated that there could be some tumor activity: one of the markers remained the same, but the other blipped up.
So I went in for my bone scan and CT scan last week, which is always a joy. I was not able to eat during the day because of my evening scan, and by the time I got home I was ravenous and more than a little insane with low-blood-sugar-induced anger. I was angry about being stuck at the hospital with nothing to do for three and a half hours because I wouldn't have had time to get home and back. I was angry about not being able to eat. I was angry about the fact that barium even exists at all and that they can't inject the contrast dye into my port (Lita says now there's a new kind called a "superport" that they can use for injecting the dye...I may consider asking to get mine replaced). I was angry about slow traffic, at the person who honked at me for not turning quickly enough into the Wendy's parking lot, at the slowness of the drive-thru. I was angry at Brian for keeping me company while eating. I was once again angry at barium when it decided to go on its voyage to porcelain heaven--all at once. I was angry at pretty much anything it occurred to me to think of or notice.
I got my results today.
The Good News
My bones appear completely stable. There was no progression of disease in my hip/spine/ribs, and Lita is not at all worried about undue risk of fracture.
What a difference a year makes.
The Bad News
The bad news is that the disease in my liver does show progression, and as of today, both tumor markers were up (the one which had gotten down to 16-point-something is now about 200). I resumed the Abraxane today and have every expectation that those markers will go down again to near-normal levels. If not, we lather, rinse, repeat with some other drug.
Alas, this also does mean I have to resume enduring Neupogen shots. :(
The Freaky News
Within the last year, they've started hearing about some kind of weird bone problem that happens with people on Zometa--in rare cases, part of the jawbone (and only the jawbone) actually dies, which can lead to exposed bone in the mouth.
Yuck.
They have not seen this before because in the past, breast cancer patients with stage IV disease didn't last very long and Zometa didn't exist. Now it does, and there are a lot more people living significantly longer. Lita stressed that this side-effect is rare, but I get a tightness in my chest when I hear people telling me about medical conditions I have a very small chance of experiencing. I've played those odds--several times--and keep on beating 'em. I have been instructed to make my orthodontist aware of the risk so that they can check for my jaw health at my regular appointments.
Great. All this money for braces only to have my lower jaw corrode away or fall off or whatever. That's just swell.
Labels: Abraxane, Avastin, barium, blood tests, bone scan, Brian, chemo, CT scan, Dr. Hayes, hospital, Lita, liver, metastasis, Neupogen, tumor marker, Zometa
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Holiday!
Today I started my holiday from Abraxane. I will continue with Zometa and Avastin, but the idea is that I'm currently doing so well that taking a break from chemo will do no harm. This will also enable everybody to see if just the Zometa and Avastin combination will keep things at bay.
If not (I am monitored with blood tests, and Dr. Hayes will order scans if warranted), I will obviously continue with Abraxane. However, eventually I will develop tingling and numbness in my extremities, and the drug may stop working for me. At which point there are other drugs to choose from, but I'm not sad about delaying the inevitable.
I'm also not sad to not spend the later part of this week--the Thanksgiving Holiday--feeling icky and like I have the flu. Woohoo!
I am a little bit sad that my braces were adjusted yesterday. I feel the pain. I hope my teef recover by Thursday.
If not (I am monitored with blood tests, and Dr. Hayes will order scans if warranted), I will obviously continue with Abraxane. However, eventually I will develop tingling and numbness in my extremities, and the drug may stop working for me. At which point there are other drugs to choose from, but I'm not sad about delaying the inevitable.
I'm also not sad to not spend the later part of this week--the Thanksgiving Holiday--feeling icky and like I have the flu. Woohoo!
I am a little bit sad that my braces were adjusted yesterday. I feel the pain. I hope my teef recover by Thursday.
Labels: Abraxane, Avastin, braces, chemo, Dr. Hayes, Zometa
Friday, September 22, 2006
Woohoo! I'm a Case Study! and Crap...I Hate Human Resources...
At my appointment this past Wednesday, Lita (my oncologist's nurse practitioner) told me that she had spoken at a conference in Chicago, where she mentioned me as an example of how well newer cancer treatments can work. I'm a case study!
Of course my name was not used, to protect my identity.
Dr. Hayes mentioned that he had recently had a conversation with Dr. Smith (the attending physician for the floor of the hospital where I spent the first two weeks of December), who was not at all certain that I'd turn out very well. "Oh, that poor lady," Dr. Smith took a dim view. I can imagine why he thought my case was dire: I was very, very ill in December, and tended to immediately vomit whenever he or his troupe of doctorlets came to visit me. I had what Lita describes as "the worst case of gastritis" she had ever seen, had a hip that broke as a result of metastatic disease, was undergoing radiation, and couldn't be moved without copious amounts of morphine.
What a very sad sack I was.
Well, things have turned around completely. Last weekend Brian and I went to visit my relatives in Cleveland, and not only was I able to stay on Aunt Barb's second floor (thanks for the hospitality, Aunt Barb), but I was able to show off my new, walker-free self to Grandma. "This is what physical therapy can do," I tried to tell her. Grandma is 93 and doesn't want to go to physical therapy. I can't say I blame her, but she does have exercises she could be doing at home. (Also, Grandma needs to wear her compression stockings. I highly recommend the toeless ones by Juzo...they included a little paper slipper that made them very easy for Brian to put them on my feet, after being shown how by the occupational therapist.) I was a little tired after walking back to the car from Jacob's Field on Friday, and walking around the Cleveland Zoo on Saturday definitely made me sore, but it was more the result of lots of walking after long inactivity, and nothing like the hip pain I experienced last year before being properly diagnosed.
Dr. Hayes also again mentioned the idea of taking a break from chemotherapy. I am more disposed to the idea this time. I will be undergoing more rounds of chemo and then in November will be re-scanned. If the downward trend on my lab results continues, and the tumors in my liver shrink further (to non-scary sizes: the largest is still around 4 centimeters), then I will be taken off Abraxane for as long as things appear to be ok. I will continue receiving Avastin and Zometa, which do not have the kind of side effects that chemotherapy does. I'm disappointed to have to continue going for infusions, but being able to grow my hair and stop getting Neupogen shots (which I've been weaseling out of having Brian give me) will be very nice. Lita called and left the latest lab results: the tumor marker which had gone down to 16.1 is now 15. The one which had gone down to 65 is now 45. (I will try to amend this with more accurate information when I get home.)
Now that things are going so well and that I am back at work full time, I've had a human resources snafu thrust upon me. I am very lucky in that my benefits allow me a very large number of "extended sick leave" hours at full pay. Unfortunately, I have only 20 of those hours remaining. I can use extended sick leave hours at half pay (which only contributes half to my retirement and benefits), or if I don't use extended sick leave hours at all for thirty days, they will be renewed to 1056 hours available.
However, those 1056 hours cannot be used for the same occurrence of an illness. Basically this means that in order to use the renewed extended sick leave hours, I have to develop some OTHER catastrophic medical situation aside from the chronic disease which for which I will be undergoing treatment for the rest of my life.
I could use my fifteen days of short term sick leave for my infusion appointments (these tend to take six hours or more) and other doctor's appointments. However, since I get infused roughly three times a month, within less than five months my sick leave will be gone for the year. Also, due to the library's interpretation of the university's Standard Practice Guide, taking three sick days per month could, in three months' time, give my supervisor (who, mercifully, is not interested in punative tracking of my schedule) grounds to write me up and fire me.
I could use my vacation time--which did not accrue while I was on extended sick leave--for my appointments, however I get only two vacation days per month and it hardly seems fair to deny me my vacation time in entirety because of a medical condition.
I could take time off without pay, which isn't appealing for the same reasons taking half-pay extended sick leave isn't a great option. Or I could rework my schedule to work longer hours on the other days of the week that I am not receiving medications intraveinously. Sure, that makes sense--let's have somebody on chemotherapy working longer hours to make up for it.
This is all patently ridiculous. I'm not a malingerer; I work hard and contribute positively to the library. I feel like I'm being punished for something utterly out of my control: I didn't choose to be afflicted by a chronic condition, and if I could magically stop going to as many appointments as I do, I'd be thrilled. However, there's nothing I can do about it, and I feel like the university's policy is designed to keep them from having to pay for somebody with a chronic illness.
Grounds for dispute under the Americans with Disabilities Act? I don't know.
Of course my name was not used, to protect my identity.
Dr. Hayes mentioned that he had recently had a conversation with Dr. Smith (the attending physician for the floor of the hospital where I spent the first two weeks of December), who was not at all certain that I'd turn out very well. "Oh, that poor lady," Dr. Smith took a dim view. I can imagine why he thought my case was dire: I was very, very ill in December, and tended to immediately vomit whenever he or his troupe of doctorlets came to visit me. I had what Lita describes as "the worst case of gastritis" she had ever seen, had a hip that broke as a result of metastatic disease, was undergoing radiation, and couldn't be moved without copious amounts of morphine.
What a very sad sack I was.
Well, things have turned around completely. Last weekend Brian and I went to visit my relatives in Cleveland, and not only was I able to stay on Aunt Barb's second floor (thanks for the hospitality, Aunt Barb), but I was able to show off my new, walker-free self to Grandma. "This is what physical therapy can do," I tried to tell her. Grandma is 93 and doesn't want to go to physical therapy. I can't say I blame her, but she does have exercises she could be doing at home. (Also, Grandma needs to wear her compression stockings. I highly recommend the toeless ones by Juzo...they included a little paper slipper that made them very easy for Brian to put them on my feet, after being shown how by the occupational therapist.) I was a little tired after walking back to the car from Jacob's Field on Friday, and walking around the Cleveland Zoo on Saturday definitely made me sore, but it was more the result of lots of walking after long inactivity, and nothing like the hip pain I experienced last year before being properly diagnosed.
Dr. Hayes also again mentioned the idea of taking a break from chemotherapy. I am more disposed to the idea this time. I will be undergoing more rounds of chemo and then in November will be re-scanned. If the downward trend on my lab results continues, and the tumors in my liver shrink further (to non-scary sizes: the largest is still around 4 centimeters), then I will be taken off Abraxane for as long as things appear to be ok. I will continue receiving Avastin and Zometa, which do not have the kind of side effects that chemotherapy does. I'm disappointed to have to continue going for infusions, but being able to grow my hair and stop getting Neupogen shots (which I've been weaseling out of having Brian give me) will be very nice. Lita called and left the latest lab results: the tumor marker which had gone down to 16.1 is now 15. The one which had gone down to 65 is now 45. (I will try to amend this with more accurate information when I get home.)
Now that things are going so well and that I am back at work full time, I've had a human resources snafu thrust upon me. I am very lucky in that my benefits allow me a very large number of "extended sick leave" hours at full pay. Unfortunately, I have only 20 of those hours remaining. I can use extended sick leave hours at half pay (which only contributes half to my retirement and benefits), or if I don't use extended sick leave hours at all for thirty days, they will be renewed to 1056 hours available.
However, those 1056 hours cannot be used for the same occurrence of an illness. Basically this means that in order to use the renewed extended sick leave hours, I have to develop some OTHER catastrophic medical situation aside from the chronic disease which for which I will be undergoing treatment for the rest of my life.
I could use my fifteen days of short term sick leave for my infusion appointments (these tend to take six hours or more) and other doctor's appointments. However, since I get infused roughly three times a month, within less than five months my sick leave will be gone for the year. Also, due to the library's interpretation of the university's Standard Practice Guide, taking three sick days per month could, in three months' time, give my supervisor (who, mercifully, is not interested in punative tracking of my schedule) grounds to write me up and fire me.
I could use my vacation time--which did not accrue while I was on extended sick leave--for my appointments, however I get only two vacation days per month and it hardly seems fair to deny me my vacation time in entirety because of a medical condition.
I could take time off without pay, which isn't appealing for the same reasons taking half-pay extended sick leave isn't a great option. Or I could rework my schedule to work longer hours on the other days of the week that I am not receiving medications intraveinously. Sure, that makes sense--let's have somebody on chemotherapy working longer hours to make up for it.
This is all patently ridiculous. I'm not a malingerer; I work hard and contribute positively to the library. I feel like I'm being punished for something utterly out of my control: I didn't choose to be afflicted by a chronic condition, and if I could magically stop going to as many appointments as I do, I'd be thrilled. However, there's nothing I can do about it, and I feel like the university's policy is designed to keep them from having to pay for somebody with a chronic illness.
Grounds for dispute under the Americans with Disabilities Act? I don't know.
Labels: Abraxane, Aunt Barb, Avastin, Brian, chemo, Cleveland, doctorlets, Dr. Hayes, Grandma, hip, Lita, liver, morphine, nausea, Neupogen, physical therapy, radiation, sick days, Zometa
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Phew; where to begin?
So much has happened in the time since my last post. I regret not having been able to chronicle things as they occurred. At this point I think most of the three or so people who read this blog are up to date, but I will try to reconstruct events (to the best of my ability) after the fact.
After my less-than-delightful news about the cause of my joint pain (which just had to be delivered by the incredibly condescending doctor whom I have since given several bad ratings in a mail survey sent to me by Oakwood Westland Family Practice), I intended to soldier on and go about my business. I contacted the University of Michigan Cancer Center, and was told that I would have to supply them with all of the conceivable medical records relating to my initial cancer diagnosis. Slides, mammograms, X-rays, scans, pathology reports, everything.
I was unable to do much of anything besides make phone calls; Brian did most of the collecting. He went to various hospitals and gathered piles of films and scans and CDs. He tried looking at them too, but to a lay person they don't make much sense. The Cancer Center called and said I had an appointment with Dr. Daniel Hayes on November 29. I met the doctor and Lita, his nurse practitioner who both seemed very kind and yet somewhat disquieting. Nobody asked the really dangerous questions, and nobody seemed inclined to provide answers to what remained unasked: how bad is it? How long do I have? What's the prognosis? Will I get better?
What they did do is start setting up appointments like gangbusters. I was to come back the next day to meet with the orthopedic surgeon to find out if surgery would be required for my hip. I was to have the first of my monthly infusions of a bone-strengthening drug and the first injection of the pellet which has by now completely shut down my ovaries (there will not be the pitter-patter of little feet in my future unless the little feet are attached to a puppy), and I was to meet with the radiation oncologist to get "measured" for the radiation treatments.
The next day I was back at the medical center being wheeled around. Good news from the surgeon: no surgery. It wouldn't really help at this point, and radiation would be of more benefit. The infusion was unpleasant, as they always are; the iv lady couldn't get the iv started and after several failed attempts had to get somebody else to do it. The giant needle used to insert the pellet hurt like a m***** f*****. When they say "You might feel a little sting," be prepared for the PAIN.
Finally I went to meet the radiation oncologist, who was oddly smiley, and the radiation people put me on the table, made some marks on my body, and then said something which sounded disturbingly like, "Ok, now we're going to do the tattoos."
"Is that really necessary?" I said. I'd had it with being stabbed for one day.
It wasn't. They were able to make do with stickers, so I avoided acquiring permanent markings as a sign of my treatment. (I did eventually get something of a radiation burn on some very private areas--and suffered some rather interesting hair loss--but the rash went away and I assume the hair will eventually grow back. If not, I'll forever be able to save money on the kind of bikini wax job people pay good money for.)
Sitting up from the table, I started to feel very ill...I am extremely familiar with nausea and started having that extreme saliva production that heralds the onset of, well, the puking. Somebody grabbed a pink tray for me, and I spewed into that for a moment. Of course the involuntary spasms caused no small amount of agony in my hip.
Later that evening, getting into the car, I had trouble turning on my good foot and accidentally put my full weight on the injured side.
Agony.
Every bump in the road compounded it.
Getting out of the car took forever.
Getting up the steps was one of the hardest and most painful things I've ever done; putting any weight at all on my right leg caused horrible, excruciating pain. Dangling the leg and putting no weight on it caused similar, but different pain. Every time I was able to hoist myself onto the next step, my right foot would tap the step as well, causing more agony. About halfway up the staircase I started to feel like my left hip was snapping apart as well. I don't know how I finally made it; Brian tried to help but lifting under my arms didn't work either. I eventually made it onto the landing and it took about a half an hour to go from the front door to the bathroom. From there I went to bed, where I planned to stay the next day.
Before leaving for work the next morning, Brian made sure I would have pills and water nearby, and that I'd have access to a phone. When I woke up and attempted to get out of bed, I was made painfully aware that I was not going to be able to do so. I couldn't get out of bed, much less cross the hall to go to the bathroom or make it down the stairs to any of my radiation appointments. I called Brian and left a message; Brian called Lita and started planning how to get me admitted to UM Hospital's Emergency Room.
To be continued...
After my less-than-delightful news about the cause of my joint pain (which just had to be delivered by the incredibly condescending doctor whom I have since given several bad ratings in a mail survey sent to me by Oakwood Westland Family Practice), I intended to soldier on and go about my business. I contacted the University of Michigan Cancer Center, and was told that I would have to supply them with all of the conceivable medical records relating to my initial cancer diagnosis. Slides, mammograms, X-rays, scans, pathology reports, everything.
I was unable to do much of anything besides make phone calls; Brian did most of the collecting. He went to various hospitals and gathered piles of films and scans and CDs. He tried looking at them too, but to a lay person they don't make much sense. The Cancer Center called and said I had an appointment with Dr. Daniel Hayes on November 29. I met the doctor and Lita, his nurse practitioner who both seemed very kind and yet somewhat disquieting. Nobody asked the really dangerous questions, and nobody seemed inclined to provide answers to what remained unasked: how bad is it? How long do I have? What's the prognosis? Will I get better?
What they did do is start setting up appointments like gangbusters. I was to come back the next day to meet with the orthopedic surgeon to find out if surgery would be required for my hip. I was to have the first of my monthly infusions of a bone-strengthening drug and the first injection of the pellet which has by now completely shut down my ovaries (there will not be the pitter-patter of little feet in my future unless the little feet are attached to a puppy), and I was to meet with the radiation oncologist to get "measured" for the radiation treatments.
The next day I was back at the medical center being wheeled around. Good news from the surgeon: no surgery. It wouldn't really help at this point, and radiation would be of more benefit. The infusion was unpleasant, as they always are; the iv lady couldn't get the iv started and after several failed attempts had to get somebody else to do it. The giant needle used to insert the pellet hurt like a m***** f*****. When they say "You might feel a little sting," be prepared for the PAIN.
Finally I went to meet the radiation oncologist, who was oddly smiley, and the radiation people put me on the table, made some marks on my body, and then said something which sounded disturbingly like, "Ok, now we're going to do the tattoos."
"Is that really necessary?" I said. I'd had it with being stabbed for one day.
It wasn't. They were able to make do with stickers, so I avoided acquiring permanent markings as a sign of my treatment. (I did eventually get something of a radiation burn on some very private areas--and suffered some rather interesting hair loss--but the rash went away and I assume the hair will eventually grow back. If not, I'll forever be able to save money on the kind of bikini wax job people pay good money for.)
Sitting up from the table, I started to feel very ill...I am extremely familiar with nausea and started having that extreme saliva production that heralds the onset of, well, the puking. Somebody grabbed a pink tray for me, and I spewed into that for a moment. Of course the involuntary spasms caused no small amount of agony in my hip.
Later that evening, getting into the car, I had trouble turning on my good foot and accidentally put my full weight on the injured side.
Agony.
Every bump in the road compounded it.
Getting out of the car took forever.
Getting up the steps was one of the hardest and most painful things I've ever done; putting any weight at all on my right leg caused horrible, excruciating pain. Dangling the leg and putting no weight on it caused similar, but different pain. Every time I was able to hoist myself onto the next step, my right foot would tap the step as well, causing more agony. About halfway up the staircase I started to feel like my left hip was snapping apart as well. I don't know how I finally made it; Brian tried to help but lifting under my arms didn't work either. I eventually made it onto the landing and it took about a half an hour to go from the front door to the bathroom. From there I went to bed, where I planned to stay the next day.
Before leaving for work the next morning, Brian made sure I would have pills and water nearby, and that I'd have access to a phone. When I woke up and attempted to get out of bed, I was made painfully aware that I was not going to be able to do so. I couldn't get out of bed, much less cross the hall to go to the bathroom or make it down the stairs to any of my radiation appointments. I called Brian and left a message; Brian called Lita and started planning how to get me admitted to UM Hospital's Emergency Room.
To be continued...
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